apron strings…

I just took Zoe in last week, to sign her up for kindergarten. we've been inseparable, her and I, for the last 5+ years of her life. she's helped me with the boys, including diaper (dootie) and keeping them busy while I do chores. she makes me smile when I don't want to. and she makes me cry when I don't want to. she tells me "mommy, don't worry.", when I start showing signs of "frazzle-ment". and she inherited her father's most beautiful attribute.....she tells me she loves me 5 to 10 times each and every day.
she is my first, my oldest and my only girl. I don't know how I'll cope without her, when she starts school. but it's my gift to her....go out and enjoy, explore, learn, play, find yourself, be yourself and remember how hard this time was for me......because I love you SO very much.

to my beautiful girl:

Apron strings
Hanging empty crazy things
My body tells me
I want someone to tie to my
Apron strings

Apron strings
Waiting for you pretty things
That I could call you
I want someone to tie to my
Lonely apron strings.

Your baby looks just like you when you were young
And he looks at me with eyes that shine
And I wish that he were mine
Then I go home
To my
Apron strings
Cold and lonely,
For time brings
thoughts that only
Will be quiet when someone clings
to my apron strings.

And I'll be perfect in my own way
When you cry I will be there
I'll sing to you and comb your hair
All your troubles I will share

For apron strings
Can be used for other things
Than what they're meant for
and you'd be happy wrapped in my
Apron strings

You'd be happy wrapped in my
Apron strings

by Tracey Thorn